Well today went a little bit better for me though I still had to stay busy to keep the depression at bay. Michael had a bad day today and is sleeping. Wish I could sleep when I feel bad like I did with the postpartum. Today I just couldn't nap even when Alexander was sleeping. I just need a purpose; I know my son is a purpose the greatest one I could have! It is so hard to explain. I just hate housework and I need to do more of it so he has a cleaner place to play in. I'm used to working a job and now I don't know when I will again. Oh I'm even getting tired of listening to myself complain. Need to post these to depression lists so I don't drag everyone down. I joined a few, but haven't made any friends yet on them.
Should go do more laundry and the dishes. Would rather sit here and vegetate.