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[30 Sep 2006|02:42pm]

I write an opinion column for the newspaper at Potland State, and I just published one for Mental Illness Awareness Week called "Coming out of the Medicine Cabinet." Here's the published version and here's the original version I posted on my livejournal. If you like it, feel free to spread it around.

Massively cross-posted.
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[30 May 2006|05:46pm]

You know what I hate about Depression...? Falling asleep in class every other minute and making a complete autistic of yourself and being too out of it to have anything intelligant to say when people ask you if you're okay. I'm gonna try to go back there soon.
Sense before I was born, I've had Bipolar. It was always THEM who made a big deal outta the issue! I did some freaky things but that's about it! You're basically considered sane until some idiot lets slip the secret, and then that's it; everyone thinks your a loon. It's not the chemical-imbalances that make Bipolar sucky; it's the PEOPLE who know!!

I got so confused from everyone [parents included] thinking I was insane and disregarding everything for Bipolar for so long that at twelve I started having these dreams...Boy, if I thought I was losing it before, after a couple restless nights of those dreams......Anyway, on my first journal entry, I tell a quick synopsis of the dreams. This account's based off the red-eyed evil twin that co-stars.

I hate the medication I take. I remember when it was finally reduced around that time, I think, after much autism-related mental-torture and stunted growth. I shot right up and started my period like a week later. I was kinda pizzed off sense I didn't wanna take the medication anyway. Now, the dose is so little, it couldn't possibly do anything, and I'm still taking it...Lithuim, I mean.
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Question? [12 Mar 2006|10:21pm]

[ mood | annoyed ]

Does anyone post here anymore. I see the last post was from 2005?


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Hummm? [10 Mar 2006|09:15pm]

[ mood | apathetic ]

Well today went a little bit better for me though I still had to stay busy to keep the depression at bay. Michael had a bad day today and is sleeping. Wish I could sleep when I feel bad like I did with the postpartum. Today I just couldn't nap even when Alexander was sleeping. I just need a purpose; I know my son is a purpose the greatest one I could have! It is so hard to explain. I just hate housework and I need to do more of it so he has a cleaner place to play in. I'm used to working a job and now I don't know when I will again. Oh I'm even getting tired of listening to myself complain. Need to post these to depression lists so I don't drag everyone down. I joined a few, but haven't made any friends yet on them.

Should go do more laundry and the dishes. Would rather sit here and vegetate.


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[08 Nov 2005|05:05pm]

Hey guys, my friend just made this community and it's a place for people to express themselves through writing, share philosophies, share their writing, etc. without the criticism of others.
It's really nice there, I suggest you go join, we don't have a lot of members right now but we would like to see it grow more.

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[22 Jun 2005|09:29pm]
© You're not crazy. ©

Bipolar Disorder: You're not alone.

Thursday, October 9, 2003 is Bipolar Disorder Awareness Day.
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[14 Sep 2004|06:31pm]

[ mood | pessimistic ]

i just want to cut, i wanna keep on cutting til all i see is red...

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umm, yeah, more poems [05 Sep 2004|01:43pm]

[ mood | anxious ]

-Lipstick and Lemonade-

She practices swear words while sipping lemonade
Staring at her refection in the mirror
Stopping every so often to analyze herself once more
"Worthless piece of shit."
She mutters though clenched teeth
Going through the motions
Degrading herself once again
It never changes
And you never notice
End if story.

I dunno, I liked the begining of that one, then I think it all went to shit.

"It's much too hard to explain
Let's just leave it at that
Because I have grown much too tired
and far too old
In my short years
Depression has aged me
And yet again, I find myself alone
Praying to a God I don't believe in
In a room, behind closed doors
It's almost like I'm not really there
Not like you'd give a shit if I was
Maybe, maybe you would
If you only knew the things I've seen
The things I've done
None of it matters anyway"
She says, slamming shut her book of lies
Closing her eyes
Blocking out what she thought just happend

I actually like this one, I wrote it a while back, yeah.

Tell if you like them or not.


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Never ending cycle [05 Sep 2004|12:48pm]

[ mood | lonely ]

I always feel like shit when I take out my anger on my parents. And then I cry, and feel weak from crying. And then I cut, and that makes it all better for a few moments, when I see the blood. But then I get mad at myself for cutting when I promised that I wouldn't. And when I get mad I take out my anger on my parents. It's a never ending cycle, and all it causes it pain.

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A poem.... [04 Sep 2004|08:29pm]

[ mood | content ]


This is what my life has become
Restless days, followed by sleepless nights
A walking shell of what I used to be
They tried to stop the pills, the therapy.....
But they don't know what I do
Cutting lines and shapes into-
legs and arms
All while they sleep
while they sleep
I lay in the grass and stare up at the stars
Listing reasons why I should live
Like some cheap grocery list and I really don't feel like shopping
They try to talk to me
Try to get me to open up
I just lie to them
To myself
I will always be lying
They'll never know the truth
This is my life
My secret
My game

yeah, ummm, tell me if you like it? please?

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Introductions are always filled with the anxiety of "will they like me" [04 Sep 2004|04:46pm]

My name is Meg, I'm 14, and I was diagnosed with ADD incuded depression two years ago. Since then I have been prescribed Prozac, Zoloft, Welbutrin, Stratara and Ritalin. Nothing seems to work, although my counsling is helping some. I'm also a germ-o-phobic, and am deeply rooted in my routines.
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[04 Sep 2004|03:53am]

[ mood | depressed ]

i burned my last name into my leg last night...

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introduction posts are awkward.... [02 Sep 2004|07:28pm]

[ mood | anxious ]

::chews lip thoughtfully::

My name is Kristin, I'm fourteen, and I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety about a year ago, give or take a few months.

I used to cut myself, but I don't anymore.

I'm on Lexapro, but they might swith me over to Prozac, becuase my meds have stopped working.

Yeah, i guess that's all for now.


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[02 Sep 2004|06:10pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

Name: kathleen, i hate it


Disorders: depression, ocd, and possible borderline (which i doubt)

Diginosed: 2 years ago maybe

Why I am making this in list for: idk i just copied the other girls

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[02 Sep 2004|05:01pm]

[ mood | sick ]

Name: Alley

Age:15 Disorders: Depression and Bipolar

 Diginosed: Depressed when i was 11 Bipolar in February

Why I am making this in list for: I HAVE NO CLUE!

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[02 Sep 2004|04:36pm]

My name is Hana, I just made this community like 10 minutes ago. I'm 15, almost 16, was diagnosed with depression in March, and have been taking Prozac. Kind of. Um. FUCK THE FREE WORLD!
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